Every time I am in transition I am always insecure, brought on by not being sure what to do next. I am never an insecure person per se but the unknown always rattles me. No amount of planning prepares me to what will happen next. I know what I want it's the getting there that is always a challenge.
When I refused an offer because I am not sure I want to be in the middle of people I am not really sure I like I experienced what they called dissonance -- did i jeopardized my career? am i too proud? am i incompetent? am i crazy? Maybe and maybe not!
But then days on end I ploughed through finding out what it is I really want to do, until I met this group that are not exceptional but very inspiring. I have to belong ... after all I am still a person for others -- I cannot keep on looking out the window and dreaming, I have to do something worthwhile.
Then I came to realize I have to do something that will make me happy, feel welcome while at the same time promoting "world peace". Being here in the Philippines, and with this new group was uncharted territory -- I don't know how I would thrive not knowing what I am getting myself into but I have this nagging feeling that I have to do something for them and I have to do it keep me sane -- and so I did get myself in the middle of things -- offered my services and left everything into God's grace and providence.
And with his grace I received good news days on end ... I just wish this keeps on and the group get what they deserve -- the respect of others and their dignity as part of their community.
I am a firm believer that PERSISTENCE is the key followed by ardent prayers that good things will happen in God's time and so it is happening now ... the plans made a couple of months ago are taking shape. I've met people that are willing to help and be part of this new adventure I am getting myself into (them included) and hoping that be the end of year a full figure had emerged and hope in humanity is restored and life goes on to a new direction for the members of the group and mine.
Don't you just love it!
When I refused an offer because I am not sure I want to be in the middle of people I am not really sure I like I experienced what they called dissonance -- did i jeopardized my career? am i too proud? am i incompetent? am i crazy? Maybe and maybe not!
But then days on end I ploughed through finding out what it is I really want to do, until I met this group that are not exceptional but very inspiring. I have to belong ... after all I am still a person for others -- I cannot keep on looking out the window and dreaming, I have to do something worthwhile.
Then I came to realize I have to do something that will make me happy, feel welcome while at the same time promoting "world peace". Being here in the Philippines, and with this new group was uncharted territory -- I don't know how I would thrive not knowing what I am getting myself into but I have this nagging feeling that I have to do something for them and I have to do it keep me sane -- and so I did get myself in the middle of things -- offered my services and left everything into God's grace and providence.
And with his grace I received good news days on end ... I just wish this keeps on and the group get what they deserve -- the respect of others and their dignity as part of their community.
I am a firm believer that PERSISTENCE is the key followed by ardent prayers that good things will happen in God's time and so it is happening now ... the plans made a couple of months ago are taking shape. I've met people that are willing to help and be part of this new adventure I am getting myself into (them included) and hoping that be the end of year a full figure had emerged and hope in humanity is restored and life goes on to a new direction for the members of the group and mine.
Don't you just love it!